I can’t remember where I heard or read that recently but it’s become my mantra of late. A new Amazing Cosbars production* is in the works and things, they are a-changing.
My 29th birthday is on the horizon, everyone around me is having babies and my “career” is unrecognizable juxtaposed against the one I began. None of these things are bad; most are good, in fact, but I feel at once excited and unmoored.
I do love a good adventure. I dropped out of high school and went away to college at 16. I picked up and moved to Charleston, SC, sight unseen, based solely on a quiz I took on the internet. But my recent cross-town move was my first in 3 years and I feel like I’m losing my nerve a little.
I sort of liked the idea of myself as someone who only glanced casually before leaping, but I guess looking can’t really hurt.
*An addition to the stable, not a replacement for gnooze or anything.
Can hardly wait for the new A.C. production, the other ones you have are very, very funny.
It seems that taking stock of your situation has made a bit wistful. Have you seen Renetto’s video about taking joy and satisfaction in the journey toward a goal more so than achieving it?
(Here’s a link: http://youtube.com/watch?v=ZqXL604fn3c)
Cheers!
-mb
I am 42, still waiting to grow up.
3 kids, 2 cats, 1 wife.
1 huge mortgage.
CEO of a company.
Work too hard, don’t play enough.
I think this is the American dream (or at least what it has become). I am truly still waiting to look around and feel successful (or like an adult), but I guess everyone is healthy and no matter what rice costs in the world, we are still all eating as much as we want. So, I guess this IS the American Dream. Anything else is simply Gravy.
Mmmmm Gravy……
I wait with baited breath to see your new production (or it could just be the fish oil pill someone slipped in my sammich).
G
Marta, I wouldn’t presume to know you better than you know yourself. But I keep wondering if you’re not an ENFP, as you wrote about yourself at the video contest page, but an ESFP “Performer Artisan” instead.
I ask because this blog post reminds me how much your hopes, fears, and guilts in life resemble mine as an ISFP Composer Artisan. In the clear-cut NF Idealists I’ve gotten to know, I see a different pattern that I identify with a good degree less.
Of the four Wizard of Oz protagonists, we Artisans most resemble the lion. More than others, we take pride in boldness and feel guilty about cowardice. I can only envy your daring in finding your courage so early in life. At 16, I was at the mercy of my authoritarian parents and a cold, cruel public school system. Most people seemed to assume that I was either a scientist-engineer type (Rational) or a humanities-clergy type (Idealist). At 36, I’m beginning in earnest to come out from under the shadows of those false expectations.
You say you’re tired? Well, hell, anyone would be after logging in so many miles per year. The female lion goes maneless, but you deserve to think of your blond mane as a dignified symbol of how far and how ably you’ve traveled, whether I’m right or wrong on the typology thing.
As an inspiration, Two Thousand Great has already helped me do some of the difficult things I’ve had to do lately. Even at moments when you feel tired, one of your past moments of strength just might be aiding somebody somewhere.
began career age 20, retired at 48 w/full pension. relocated upstate. started second career, teaching college part-time, at age 50. awaiting a full-time job opening (career #3) for a sweet 51st b-day present this summer.
wife’s full-time job, her second career, is 6 counties away. it provides full family health insurance coverage (wanderlust, long story…). wouldn’t change a thing-our 13 year old daughter’s indeed a very lucky girl.
something’s missing, though…the gnooze!
29? Wow, was my guess ever off, I thought you were ten years younger.
I can relate to the casual-look-before-leaping; I quit my job and moved over 2000 miles from home, to another country altogether, on basis of a physics equation! And it was a darn good decision, too.
M- It’s funny how birthdays encourage us to evaluate. You’re a helluva lot younger than me but I think you will find, as you go through life that things rarely turn out the way you’d expect. Especially when you don’t follow any specific path. You don’t sound like someone who’s confined herself by convention. Embrace your unique experience. You will do things in your life beyond your wildest dreams. The best is yet to come. I sound like a friggin’ fortune cookie, don’t I?
You’re just mighty cool Marta…I can’t give a better b-day present than to bask in the coolness…
A little more looking and less leaping is kind of natural as the years pass and you have more to lose, I think. Or at least that’s the way it has been for me. I look back at some of the leaps I took ten to twenty years ago and say to myself, “Who was that guy, and into what closet did I stuff him?”
College at 16? Cool … in addition to everything else, it seems that Marta is indeed smarter than your average bear. Yeah, life just isn’t fair. (I almost typed “ain’t” for effect, but I didn’t want to leave an impression of being monosyllabic or anything.)
relax.
kick back.
Have a margarita.
your twitter about you ‘rent is hilarious.
Sorry, I meant ‘rentS. Parents. D’oh!
HEY Marta,
Funny how that time changes the way we think, and things we do. Life’s experiences and lesson’s learned some of them the hard way gives us an education one can never get in school.
That why you now look before you Leap. If you find you’re going to be landing on nails or broken glass, you perhaps might want to rethink that leap.
The jump never hurts but the landings can be hell.
You seem to have learned all about that I think you’ll do fine.
You always make me lol!
Thanks for that.
Invent a new drink, the Martarita! (maybe blue like the new paint)
Different people in all countries take the mortgage loans in various creditors, just because that is simple.